More than just a good news

A slight problem

           Two weeks ago, a newly found Filipina friend invited Ryan and I for a party in her house. I  met her through friendster and we clicked right away. She's been here less than a month when I first met her. She live 4 miles away from our house. Ryan and I were so excited because now we can just take turns in visiting each other. I met her husband prior on a dinner and Mommy Hope (her mother-in-law) as I call her in the party. It was a blast. Anyways, during the party I felt really weird. I felt so much pressure in my belly and I couldn't stand it. Mommy Hope advised me to just sit down. I have been to the bathroom so many times and everytime I wipe off there were blood. I was slightly spotting again. I called Ryan in the house. He was outside cutting grass as he only dropped me off to her house. He was so worried and asked me if I wanted to stay or if I want him to pick me up. I opted to stay. I don't remember how many times I went to the bathroom. I thought this was weird. I already pass the critical period which was 12 weeks. I was 14 weeks then.

         Luckily, the next day was our scheduled appointment with Dr. G. We were supposed to hear the heartbeat that day but I told him that I was spotting the previous day. He took us to the second room for another ultrasound. Ultrasounds are always fun because you can get to see the baby but that one was different. A little outside the baby where the placenta is, there  was a blood clot forming. About the size of the baby's head. We were scared. I was looking at the screen with tears in my eyes. Dr. G said, that the blood that doesn't come out while I am spotting,  forms a clot inside. If I don't stop lifting and bending over, the hard work, we can lose the baby because the clot will keep on growing and it will push the baby away and could die.

         After the doctor's visit, the next day I went to work to let them know that I will be taking off.  I then  scheduled myself for a complete pregnancy survey in a nearby hospital per the doctor's request. I was in complete bedrest that entire week. A jug of water right next to me, phone by my side and I only get up to go to the bathroom. I never think of it as boring not for one time. I kept telling myself that I am doing this for our little angel. Watched tv, did cross stitch, read, that was how  I kept myself busy.

Test Result

         We were crossing our fingers that the result this time will be ok. I have never seen Ryan so worried in my entire life. I have to tell you, this has brought us even closer than ever. He took care of me real good. He did all the laundry, ironed his clothes to work and fix dinner for both of us. Anyways, the result was really good. The clot shrunk it's size from the last time we saw it because I was completely in bedrest but it was still there. There is still a lot of chances for it to grow back.

Ryan always teased me with the baby's nose. He said, our baby's nose will look like mine. I see a little bump in the ultrasound pictures that we have and the baby is only 14 weeks. There is a lot of chances that his/her nose will grow. It doesn't matter anyway.

Stay at home mommy to be

          Let me tell you a little story about my papa which I already mentioned to Line before. Papa was working abroad when I was 5. He used to work in Libya. He left the country 3 times until all of the sudden he decided to stay home and look for a job locally. Some of his relatives wasn't too happy about it. Some neighbors thought my Papa was stupid. We could have save a lot of money and be rich. We just then recently purchased a piece of land to build our little house in.  His reason was, he doesn't want time will come that his children will not recognize him anymore. He said, he missed a lot from us growing and he doesn't want to miss some more. To me, the was the most wonderful decision he ever did. We don't want to be a stranger to him as well.

           In my case it is a little different. When we were in the doctor's office, seeing the baby kicked, had hiccups and waved his/her hand on us, Ryan said we needed to do something and I agree. I told him I would do anything in this case. I only have 2 classes away from graduating which I can always take on-line. When that time comes I do not need to go through the graduation process. In the elevator going down, we decided I should quit. Tuesday, that same week, I went to work and was ready to hand in my resignation. Some of the team members saw me and asked why can I just take a medical leave. I told them I just want to be down with it. Even our HR asked if I can just put myself on leave with pay. After more convincing, I gave in.

            I am a person with pride when it comes to work. When I first learned that I am pregnant. My friends at work warned me about the lifting and the bending over. They said, wait till your critical period is over then you should be ok. One lady even warned me about working too much. She said, retail is the worst company to work for when you are pregnant and I certainly agree with her. Lately, I have been feeling guilty because I have not kept my area, the way it is supposed to be. Keeping it up needs a lot of strength and I don't want to keep on calling everybody to come help me, although a lot of them volunteered in case I needed help. I did it myself anyway. On my third month, the way I worked changed. I thought I was ok now that I pass the critical period. I worked even harder to keep up. I got caught up but  my body just gave up on the 14th week. With work and school (mid-term week) coming together, it was too much for me to handle.

            Originally, I was going to take a year leave after we have the baby but this came so soon than we anticipated. Currently, I still have a job waiting for me but I know I will quit anytime soon, to be home with our baby. We are so happy that I took this decision. I learned to make the table ready for dinner when Ryan comes home from work. I learned a lot of things now that I am just home. Ryan's face light up whenever he sees me rather than waiting for me till 10:00 p.m. to come home from work. Rhebs  I will let you know the moment I start getting bored ( kay I will bug you to call me jud) but for now I am enjoying being home. I am not worried about finding a job soon. I'll find my way and if not, I will give up my career and take care of my husband and baby .

          Today is my 4th month, yehey . I am feeling great and very happy. My family back home have been really supportive. As my brother said, he need to see his "pikwik" (i really don't know what that word meant but he kept calling our baby that). We are planning to spend Christmas there one of these Christmas  in the Philippines. Anyways, in the end, Papa and I are not too different after all. Papa gave up everything for the sake of us and I will give up anything for the same of my family.

         Thank you for those who continually pray for me and my family. I felt so much blessing coming my way.

Comments

[SaRah]

IN,
my heart goes out 4 u!you made the right decision, you're not alone I also left my job to takecare of my baby. i know you'll gonna enjoy motherhood, baby's grow so fast at minsan lang silang magiging bata ejoy every single moment of it. Once the baby is here he/she'll keep you busy as in busy. TC ok relax

[-Lee-]

Hi In, i haven't congratulated you yet, so here's a belated one. It's not too late until you have the baby naman di ba? lol. Anyway i hope everything goes smooth-sailing from this point onwards. Again, congrats to you and Ryan.

['phOebe']

hi cher!
congratulations on your new baby!!! take care!!

[Darling]

Ei in, lets continue praying that your baby will be safe until you pop that peanut out.

Always remember that we're just here for you guys and we would like to congratulate you and Ryan for having that blessing.

[Raleene]

awh t.in! baby! congrats! hope the baby turns out healthy =D miss you <3